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I long for freedom, and when I get it, I don't know what I'm going to do with it, but I will surely be happy.

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Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Since my life is going through, and will go through, some major changes, I have decided to start taking as many photos as I can of everything and everyone around me because I know that in a few months I'll look back at these days and miss them so much.
Here we go: April!

Monday, April 29, 2013
I promised myself a while a go not to document negative feelings and sad moments in my blog. But right now it feels like I am all alone and I need to let some of it out.

I had a dream last night. Toto and I were in a class as if we were students again. There was a guy in the back who kept making jokes, also there were fafy girls whispering and making noise, and the teacher was Dr Rinad. I don't know what brought that into my unconscious mind, but it made me miss university and miss the times when everything was simpler and cuter and easier, and you didn't have to be nice to certain people to please them and you didn't have to wear certain things and go to certain places..

I know that this is a dark moment and that I am insistingly staring at the empty half of the glass, but right now all I want is to be 19 again sitting on our special bench outside the faculty of languages and laughing my heart out with my friends.

Yesterday was the last day at my job. I already miss my friends there.. and my office.. and even Shaheen!
Wednesday, April 17, 2013

المرأة السعوديه بدل ما تسوق سياره 
في إلها سياره فاخره وسواق خصوصي 
في نسآء تضطهد في جميع العالم وما في 
عيون اعلاميه عليها
Sunday, April 14, 2013
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one

Sunday, April 7, 2013
You know that moment when you're driving in Amman and you feel like you've turned into a complete asshole? when you start cursing everyone you lay eyes on, and when you, for no good reason, decide you will never ever let anyone pass through even if it it means you cause a car accident, and when you feel like you're in a competition with the other drivers around you to prove who can get there faster, and when you feel like you have to prove you are a good driver even though you are a girl. I think most of us, if not all, are familiar with this feeling. You just have to feel this way at some point if you're gonna drive in Amman.
I hate myself sometimes while driving, but there is something about driving in Jordan that just makes you turn into a scumbag the moment you get behind the wheel.. I swear to God! 
Anyway, I was thinking of some things you could do to keep yourself from getting angry while driving.
1. Listen to your favorite music. I don't know about other people bu that always helps me stay calm and enjoy myself while driving. 
2. Give a ride to someone. Again it will keep you calm and make the time pass faster. Unless you're driving someone you hate of course, then, you'll probably get someone killed.
3. Play a game. I do this when I'm stuck in traffic jam. For example I count the number of people picking their noses(for some reason Jordanian people feel like this is the best time to do that task). Or for example count the Kia Sephia's or the Mitsubishi Lancer's..
4. Leave early. Do not underestimate this advice, it can change your whole ride to work, trust me.

Hope these tips help. they certainly helped me. Drive safely! :)
Saturday, April 6, 2013

I would have had a shred of sympathy with these Femen women if they knew anything about repression. These women represent one of the things I despise most  in the world: spoiled, pampered little princesses who know nothing about suffering trying to act like they have a cause.. I would tolerate that if they had chosen a way other than popping their naked boobs in public.. what an ugly, disgusting scene.. I honestly feel ashamed as a woman.
What do you know about repression? The fact that you chose this method to demonstrate proves that you know absolutely nothing!

You demonstrate against using your bodies as an object, and yet you yourselves are using them to promote your ideas! don't you think this will encourage people to objectify you? and you deserve it by the way.

You know what I think? I think these women know nothing about repression. I think they just wanna get naked in public and pretend it's for a good cause, and ironically, it doesn't change anything. in fact it makes everything worse. This will only make an opportunity for oppressors to point and say: Is that what you want? is that why you demand your rights? 

And last but not least, a girl Amina's age would have been called a child or a minor if she would have been married, but see how standards change? she's old enough for this?

Friday, April 5, 2013
Since this is probably the last rainy day we're gonna get in a while I thought it is ought to be documented. It smells beautiful outside.

Thursday, April 4, 2013
Way too many for me to talk about, not just in my life but in the world and everything... I have so much to say and so little time on my hands right now.
I am planning for my wedding+post-wedding stuff (holy falafel!). I'll have you all know that I currently own a set of spoons, forks, dishes, pans, and pots! I have no idea what I am going to do with them but anyway.. 
I'm booking a place for my wedding very soon, I cannot express how annoying, exhausting, and pointless it is to look for a place for one's wedding. Again, Why must we torment ourselves so??..

Now for the big news, I, the gorgeous and equally intelligent Rain, got a job offer to work with Forbes Middle East, thank you very much :) I have always dreamed of working at a well-known respected organization, and here it is! the chance to work for such big name is a dream come true al-hamdulillah. It was incredibly difficult for me to take the decision of leaving my current job, but having the Saturdays off at the new job worked like a charm at making me feel immediately better. 

What else is going on? oh yeah, today I watched Evil Dead. why, oh, why did I do such  thing to myself? I was scared shitless, pardon my French, but it was absolutely terrifying, or I am a wuss according to my fiance :(
On the other hand, I watched The Croods the other day and meant to writer a review about it. It was wonderful, hilarious, and truly lovely. See why I love animation movies? they leave me feeling great about everything, not scared to sleep alone for a week!

Okay, have I started blabbing yet? It is really late and I am exhausted and still have a big day tomorrow. Wish me luck dear blog. I won't be long for I have tons of things to talk about soon.

I leave you with a number of photos taken with my phone camera recently. Some are a bit old.

I am a fan of bizir..

My engagement dress before unpacking

I am gonna miss you both :)

Owl love with Shurooq!

one of my colleagues drinks this much of flavored yogurt every single day!

the dress I wore to 2raiet fate7ty (there is noway I can translate that)

My famous vegetables soup before making, I can eat 10 bowls of it in a row!

My really weird drunk smurf hoodie

Workers resting on a cliff 0_O

It was a beautiful day

Nighty night :*